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Blog EntryNyoba bikin portfolioSep 26, '08 10:14 AM
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Haloh..

Mm.. gw udah berusaha ngumpulin foto-foto terbaik gw buat gw pasang di galeri online. Gw kumpulin esai foto juga disitu.

Situsnya itu http://nbudianggoro.multiply.com/.

Sengaja gw ga pasang portfolio di galeri yang ini karena gw ga mau ngapus yang udah ada sama gw pengen nama domainnya lebih personal, yang ada nama gwnya.

Mampir yah. Dengan ini portfolio online gw gw soft launch. Selanjutnya mungkin situs ini bakal terabaikan. Di galeri baru itu gw pasang sepak terjang fotografi gw sampai saat ini. Gw ngeliatnya aja jadi mikir:
"Gw kayaknya ga jelek-jelek amat nih di bidang fotografi.. :) "

Look forward to making more meaningful pictures.

Cheers.

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I am discussing a photo series from national geographic magazine for my learning. I will discuss each photos and see what I can learn from them. Basically, what I had to say about the pictures with my mind set on the learning mode. So here it is. The first one is about pirates of the Malacca Straits. Pictures are by John Stanmeyer, they can be found here:

http://ngm.nationalgeographic.com/2007/10/malacca-strait-pirates/stanmeyer-photography

This is a pretty long post, by the way..

1.    Singapore port.
Recognizing the subjects to include in relation to the topic/story to cover. In this case it is the ship, the Singapore, and the port in the distance. The rope was added as the main interest subject by which the message about the port is conveyed. The rope is the main “wow” factor. Secondly then are is the ‘simphony’ of the city, the port, and the ship. The green waters is the last factor, for me, at least, to add to the mix. The details of the rope add an eerie atmosphere to the picture. This eerie feeling I think is purposively added in this series, as manifested here also in the dark tone and the cloudy day. I think the editors ordered the eerienes to go along with the theme pirates.

2.    Singapore red boat
The mood is quite, yet sparkling in city lights. The quiteness is expressed in the almost empty boat, and the behavior of the people in the boat. The slow speed added to give movement. I imagined John planned to get the almost empty boat (possibly in almost late hours). Then look for angles and moment that can maximise the view of city and the people. I’m not sure, though, which one comes first. Take pictures in the field and let the writer connect them in the storyline and write the caption that connects, or the writers communicate with the photographer first about the concepts that the writers wishes or recommends to convey. It’s most probably the latter, to think of it. Anyway, the colors are good. Red and the city lights. And the tilting view is also good. I too would have to react in the field to decide to tilt or not. And if I decide to, I need to tilt in the correct angle. I would also have to arrange the correct exposure.

3.    Malaysian marine patrol
I imagine this picture is not so difficult to take. You need to take pictures of marine patrol, so hop on one. Then find the elements  of the boat (the gun) and the angles that works best. And decide the moment to take it (when a boat passes). The expression of the police is the golden moment, though. It’s rather difficult to predict. The gun really makes a strong message, but not maximum, I think, because the gun doesn’t cover large space. I don’t think it can ever be given the circumstances.

4.    Swamp Aerial
This is an aerial pic of a swamp. A serene mood, supported by the diffuse clouds. Mind the islets shape and angle and composition. Have to make good combination. Although I think this picture is not so strong.

5.    Chug
Great use of slow speed and great moment that gives the landscape as it is. And the pose of the people. The colors don’t really match, though. Its probably best in black and white. But in a series, I think you should use either color or black and white, and not both.

6.    Pool hall
Great use of mirrors. I like it. And great moment. You should be patient to get it. All of the people fits well.

7.    Green house
Honestly, this is a kind of picture I find boring. You know, the larg dark space, the long straight lines and conventional rectangular shape. I guess this capture perfectly the situation of the area at the moment. The building, the night, people talking, the prostitute. Then again, probably there’s no other way to capture those elements in a picture. I would take at least two pictures, one of the building exterior which covers the people talking outside (including the ones at the back). Second is the women inside which I would shot maybe by gazing through the window. Then, well I guess this picture is the most perfect way to capture those elements I mentioned in a single most artful picture. The green, white, and red lights and the lines adds to the attraction. The board lines too.

8.    Musi river life
Well, from the previous picture I learn that the best picture of the area and moment is the one that conveys the message, and art is the tool that enhance that message. So I learn to appreciate a picture by the meaning of elements it contain, and not just the “wow” factor. The “wow” factor in this picture I think are the fog and the boy’s silhouette. If I would go after only the “art” I would zoom in on the boy, take a vertical position that includes the smoke. But I need to tell about the women and the other boats, and so I would probably take a wider picture like this one. But, since I avoid being a copycat, I’d just look for other methods.

9.    Musi family dawn
This picture tells about family at Musi river. Indeed, the activities of the family is the main interest, all four of its members. And then it is enhanced by the bridge lights, the dawn, the contrasting darkness, the house’s lights, the reflection, and the composition. The details are also interesting, e.g. the laundry and the bridge. The longer house at the right supports the composition.

10.    Ramshackle catwalk
I think this is a simple picture. You just stand on the side and wait for somemeone pass by. That is why, I think, John tilted the camera a bit. A flat angle would be boring. And the pale sky. I’m not sure if it is intentional, to get the quiet mood, or John has no time to get a brighter day. I think the former is more correct, though. The details of the people in the background is interesting.

11.    Clothespin card
This is a visually interesting culture. Especially the clothespin. And John cover the complete elements which surrounds the behavior. The cards, the playmates, the crowd. And John pick an interesting angle and composition. Here, again, the camera is tilted to add to the wow factor. The picture is colorful, but I figure they are left underexposed to give dim feeling, or probably the less light cannot be compensate.

12.    Body bathing
The picture of a dead body always adds an intense feeling.  A feeling of condolence and calm feeling. This feeling is supported by the expression of the family, and the light. For me, the colors are particularly interesting. This, I guess, ad to the irony of colorful and dark mood. Although it’s a rather simple picture in terms of skills, I guess you would have to wait for the most perfect moment, and that is when the woman pours the water. I couldn’t think of another pose fit for the moment.

13.    Combing hair
The main theme, I guess, is the daily life at Musi river banks. A casual morning. The mirror is a good find, also the moment. I don’t know if it is staged or not. It could be. The light is also interesting. The obstructed light technique as I would like to call it, although here it’s not so conspicuous. I’d say this is a pretty quiet picture, but this perfectly fits the storyline.

14.    Chinese shop
This is also a simple picture. You just choose and interesting object and then wait for someone to pass by. But I think the editor pick this picture because it depicts an important symbol which fits the storyline, that is the reminder of a golder era, the chinese shop with its attractive lights and ornaments.

15.    Burning incense
Great find of patterns and the mists. Also kudos for waiting for the moment. The giant incense in itself is special. The pattern that they created made it more eyecatching.


In summary, things I learn and things I should look out or do when I’m photographing are:
-    Be more attentive to the elements I want to convey in a picture. I usually get stuck on a particularly interesting subject and get focused on it, ignoring other elements. That’s probably why I shoot children’s expressions often. Even when I do pay attention to the other elements, I lost on the composition and lacking creativity, such as tilting angle, etc.
-    Be more diligent and creative in searching angles and moments. Wait for minutes to hours or even a day if I have to. Be patient to get the gem. Walk a lot, but not to much as this may disturb the subjects. Just be more smart and observant in projecting angles. Be more creative.
-    Be more attentive to the mood, that is, the subtle elements that determine the mood of the picture, such as the cloud, colors, people, etc.
-    Be more sharp on the techniques. Monumental eyecatching objects can be noted early for use as a background in enhancing a main interest. Remember tilting camera, moment, composition. Remember mirror, reflections, obstructed light, mists.
-    Get a grip on the symbols. Symbols of wealth, or serenity, or aggresiveness, etc.
-    Don’t be afraid to get a quiet picture. I seem to always want to get pictures that can “punch viewers in the face”. Sometimes information should be prioritize over the artfulness, over my likeness, over the wow factor.

Pretty nice lesson, I’d say, although it takes more energy that I first thought. That’s good. Look forward to discuss another series. Thank you for bearing with me.

Blog Entrykayaknya gue ada kelainanApr 26, '08 2:04 PM
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I think I'm a little crazy.

Tadi siang latian main musik bareng. Dan kerasa banget kalo gue kelamaan bertapa. Gue merasa ada yang aneh dari gue, terutama dalam hal interaksi sosial. Seperti ada kelainan.

Sekarang, setelah cari-cari bentar di internet, sepertinya gue tau kenapa. Gue mengidap "avoidant personality disorder". (Tadinya gue pikir gue autis)

Di bawah ini gejala-gejala kelainan ini (dari wikipedia), semuanya gue alami:

    * Hypersensitivity to criticism or rejection
    * Self-imposed social isolation
    * Extreme shyness in social situations, though feels a strong desire for close relationships[4]
    * Avoids interpersonal relationships
    * Feelings of inadequacy
    * Low self-esteem
    * Mistrust of others
    * Extreme shyness/timidity
    * Emotional distancing related to intimacy
    * Highly self-conscious
    * Self-critical about their problems relating to others
    * Problems in occupational functioning
    * Lonely self-perception
    * Feeling inferior to others
    * Chronic substance abuse/dependence[5]
    * Investment in fixed fantasies

Huh, kayak mo nangis gue...

Blog EntrySpecific Photographic Skills To LearnMar 26, '08 11:15 AM
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As I'm progressing in my photography practice, also after seeing more pictures from renowned photographers, there are more skills that I'm eager to apply and learn more. Some of these skills are familiar to me and I exercise now and then. However, so far in my practice I don't take account of these skills purposedly. Now, whenever I go to photograph I will remember these and eagerly practice it. These things I call skills probably not skills as perceived by other photographers. Here they are and what I have to say about each of them:

- Reflections
Reflective plane contains a whole new exciting world, which is certainly worth exploring in terms of finding angle. The surface creates a dramatic effect such as blur, or ripples in waving waters.

- Differential Focus
What I meant by this is when a certain focused subject is complemented with unfocused subject. The main interest to choose between these two depends on various things, such as the size of the subjects, leading lines, moment, etc. A rough example of this skill is that of a focused face of small child stands side by side with a larger unfocused face of an elderly.

- Differential Lighting
This is the interplay of shadows and light. Certain points of interest are illuminated while others not in a picture, creating dramatic effects.

- Flash/Blur
With this skill you freeze a certain subject in foreground with flash, while using relatively long exposure to blur the background. This technique creates dynamic effects.

- Panning
The conventional panning is that of one relatively focused subject moving from one edge to the other, while the background blurs. However, I'm look forward to try different kind of panning, for example, maybe rotational movement, or combining this skill with the others.

- Extreme Framing
What I refer to this term is when a focal object is surrounded with a frame object(s) which fills most of the picture. This accentuate the focal object further as the main interest.

- Multi-layering
Multi-layering creates an impression of a multi-dimensional picture. This effect is created from objects in foreground, background, and in the middle. I thinks it's the size ratio and composition of the objects which determine the intensity of this effect.

These are additions to the skill that I think is beginning to settle in my subconscience:

- Pattern
Looking at interesting patterns and an equally interesting pattern breaker to go with it.


These skills can be combined. I should be interesting to see the result of this combination. Great, especially thanks to the renowned photographers which inspired me of these ideas. Now, altogether new ways of exploring the environment photographically are opened. And I can't wait to take pictures with these new ways of seeing.

Regards..

Blog EntrySekilas: Fotografi Dengan MisiMar 14, '08 7:04 PM
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Saya pikir, fotografi itu fungsi utamanya adalah untuk komunikasi, dari fotografer buat pelihat fotonya. Selama ini saya masih sibuk dengan urusan teknis. Momen, sudut potret, komposisi, pencahayaan, warna, bentuk & pola, fokus (yang terjemahan Inggrisnya saya singkat jadi Moment. Angle .Composition. Exposure. Tone. Pattern. Focus.). Tentu saja ada teknik khusus seperti panning, flash, pemakaian grain, dan yang lainnya.

Mungkin karena kelamaan berkutat di teknis ini, saya jadi merasa hampa, dull, bosen. Saya udah mesti beranjak ke ranah ide, dimana ide yang saya temui berdasarkan lingkungan saya mendikte foto apa yang saya buat beserta pengaturan teknis yang dibutuhkannya.

Saya ga mau memotret cuma buat menyampaikan pesan : "saya bisa bikin foto yang bagus loh!" Kemudian saya mencari obyek yang bagus untuk difoto dan mengatur hal teknisnya sedemikian rupa hingga tampak bagus.

Saya mau berjalan gontai di suatu tempat, menjelajahinya, menghayati suasana yang ada, merasakan kesan apa yang paling menyentuh saya disana, lalu memutuskan "roh" apa yang mau saya tangkap lewat kamera saya, pesan apa yang mau saya bawa ke pelihat foto saya. Bila saya telah menemukan "roh" ini, baru saya mulai mengatur hal teknis. Mulai berjongkok, mondar-mandir, mencari simbol-simbol atau obyek penarik perhatian, menanti momen/cahaya, bereksperimen dengan flash, dan sebagainya. Kemudian barulah saya menekan shutter "penangkap roh" saya.

Tentang ide yang mau saya tangkap, saya mau ide tersebut membangun pelihatnya, entah dengan pesan moral, kesadaran tentang indahnya alam, dan sebagainya. Saya ga mau foto saya menangkap mata saja, tapi saya mau ia dapat menangkap hati. Karena kekekalan ada di hati, bukan di penglihatan.

Saya ga mau bertujuan cuma untuk menghasilkan foto yang bagus dilihat, saya mau membuat pelihat foto saya terbuka hatinya tentang alam dan kehidupan. Ini panggilan saya dalam fotografi.

Blog Entry Otakku 20': Latihan Komposisi FotografiMar 5, '08 2:09 AM
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(Ini termasuk latihan menulis 20 menit)

Bagi saya, mencari komposisi yang baik adalah mencari sweet spots (titik-titik manis) dimana obyek-obyek mestinya ada. Efek yang ditimbulkan dari titik manis ini cukup luar biasa karena ia dapat membuat obyek-obyek yang biasa menjadi terlihat indah.

Latihan komposisi yang saya lakukan ada beberapa cara, antara lain, lihat dan evaluasi, kroping, dan penjajakan sudut potret.

Lihat dan evaluasi adalah istilah yang saya tujukan untuk latihan memotret komposisi tanpa memakai kamera. Ini mirip dengan seperti Pak Agus Leonardus sebut waktu ceramah di Senayan City, yaitu membawa kertas dengan lubang membentuk kotak untuk dibidik ke obyek yang sekiranya akan dipotret. Hanya saja, latihan yang saya lakukan tidak memakai kertas itu, hanya dengan mata saja.

Pada umumnya, foto yang kita hasilkan adalah ambilan dari penglihatan kita. Kita seperti memotong sebagian dari apa yang kita lihat dari sekeliling kita, membingkainya dalam bingkai segi empat. Prinsip ini juga mendasari latihan saya. Saya mencoba membentuk bingkai segi empat dalam pikiran dan penglihatan saya. Bingkai imajiner tersebut kemudian saya geser-geser sesuka hati saya untuk membentuk foto yang kira-kira menarik.

Tata peletakkan obyek untuk membentuk foto yang menarik menurut saya tidak hanya memperhitungkan tata letak semata-mata, namun juga harus memperhatikan intensitas perhatian dari masing-masing obyek, pesan atau mood yang mau disampaikan, detil setiap obyek dan latar. Faktor-faktor di atas adalah seperti bumbu masakan yang harus ditimbang-timbang untuk mendapat keseimbangan/komposisi yang diinginkan. Idealnya, penimbangan ini harus dilakukan sebelum tombol shutter ditekan. Tetapi terkadang keterampilan pemotret belum memadai untuk ini dan momen juga tidak mengijinkan untuk berlama-lama merencanakan komposisi..

~ belum selese (20' is apparently too short)

Giant Plasa Semanggi, 4 Maret 2008
Selesai jam 21.22

Blog Entrythings i should learnFeb 22, '08 4:14 PM
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I note in my mind skills in photography I lack of. If I don't write them down somewhere I would loose valuable lessons. So here they are, things I should learn:

1. Learning to see the light. Evaluating dark areas and light areas.
2. Preparing to capture the moment. Preparing the camera settings, immediate compositional skills, choosing angles, etc.
3. Put higher standards in choosing points of interest in taking pictures. I should choose my subjects carefully, because when I decided to do so, I would spend significant amount of time and other resources (e.g. memory space, shutter count, battery life) to get the picture right. So choose only those that worth the resources. Have higher standards.
4. Interacting with human subjects. I'm still reluctant to take pictures of people that are aware of my presence. I need to learn the social skills, and overcoming my own hinderances.


Also, in this space I would like to take note about forest photography, a subject I intend to learn. Points of interest that I should look in a forest to take pictures of are:
1. Interesting shapes, colors, and composition.
2. Interesting lights and shadows.
3. Interesting details. Forest is about crowded place, especially rainforest. Learn to use it to your greater advantage.

Note that particularly in this subject, I shouldn't be afraid to abandon the histogram rule. It's okay to have dominant dark or light areas. Open your mind, don't be afraid to break histogram rule (or even composition rule of third) to capture your intended emotion and atmosphere.

My equipment's weakness is in the colors, so I should re-edit the colors in Photoshop. I also need to restrengthen my basic skills in capturing well focused and sharp pictures. One thing that is also important is that Gud luck!

I photographed Dina & Iji's Martupol ceremony (traditional Bataknese prewedding ceremony as some kind of agreement for both parties to marry). Here's what happened:

~ I used Canon PowerShot S2 IS and a tripod. I'm not satisfied with the result.

~ I lost many precious moments.

~ Most of the pics are blurred.

~ I had no significant problem with focus.

~ I felt awkward hanging around and walking around in front of the crowd.

~ I used P and Time Variable (Tv) mode and built in flash.

~ I brought a small (cheap) slave flash, but I didn't use it.

~ I should have taken more shots and angles but I'm afraid to distract the crowd and the ceremony (people were looking at me!).

~ I tried to play with composition and I think he concept works but the problem is with the execution (the blurred pics).

Here's what I learned from the results:
~ Be calm! Check the result on the spot and think clearly to tackle the problems! Moreover, this way I can reduce the camera shake!

~ I should have been smarter in choosing shooting modes. Tv mode is not Time priority at all! It is always EXPOSURE priority! For example I chose 1/f = 1/10 but if this speed doesn't fulfill the exposure stop I chose then it will be adjusted to slower speed (e.g. 0,3"). Indeed my speed is mostly 0,3" and this is partly why it is blurred! I should have used the Manual mode!

~ I shouldn't have limited myself to ISO 100 and 50. This will reduce my aperture speed. A bit grainy pics are better than blurred pics.

~ I should increase my shooting efficiency. I really never thought about this before. I should not think that I can shoot as many I want, because I should be careful not to distract the ceremony too much.

~ Tripod is not always effective. Indeed it is often useless in this case. Why? Because the subjects are MOVING! Even if my camera shake reduces, the people move won't. But it is still worth bringing and I can use it sometimes. I just need to depend much on luck this way, hoping that the subjects don't move during a fraction of a second my shutter opens.

~ I should use practice my camera more to get the feeling of how the combination of aperture speed, diaphragm opening, ISO, and flash intensity result. I should also get the feeling of the metering. Eye sight exercise is good for composition, but it is not enough.

~ Maybe I should have used my slave flash so that my built-in flash intensity can be reduced, therefore decreasing the replenishment time and so I wouldn't have lost precious moments. But the problem is that my slave flash is the small, hand held type. So if I use it, it would be holding my camera at one arm and my other arm raised to hold the flash. This is an awkward position, and I'm afraid to distract the crowd.

~ I should learn about what actions can distract the crowd and the movements that are acceptable for a cameraman in a ceremony. I think maybe I'm just being too cautions, inconfident and nervous. (I'm introverted, I avoid the spotlights).

~ At one time I thought that my camera is the amateur type and I should use DSLR type instead. But I don't have the money and I believe with optimum usage I can also produce good results using my PowerShot S2 IS. So I don't want to use the amateur camera to excuse my poor results.

Thanks and regards!

Nugi

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