I think I'm a little crazy.
Tadi siang latian main musik bareng. Dan kerasa banget kalo gue kelamaan bertapa. Gue merasa ada yang aneh dari gue, terutama dalam hal interaksi sosial. Seperti ada kelainan.
Sekarang, setelah cari-cari bentar di internet, sepertinya gue tau kenapa. Gue mengidap "
avoidant personality disorder". (Tadinya gue pikir gue autis)
Di bawah ini gejala-gejala kelainan ini (dari wikipedia), semuanya gue alami:
* Hypersensitivity to criticism or rejection
* Self-imposed social isolation
* Extreme shyness in social situations, though feels a strong desire for close relationships[4]
* Avoids interpersonal relationships
* Feelings of inadequacy
* Low self-esteem
* Mistrust of others
* Extreme shyness/timidity
* Emotional distancing related to intimacy
* Highly self-conscious
* Self-critical about their problems relating to others
* Problems in occupational functioning
* Lonely self-perception
* Feeling inferior to others
* Chronic substance abuse/dependence[5]
* Investment in fixed fantasies
Huh, kayak mo nangis gue...
